(8:15:58 PM) LoLiAddiCteD: As baked as I am, it comes to no surprise that<br>
I have no idea whats going on, no less what happened. Care to elaborate?<br>
(8:17:09 PM) LoLiAddiCteD: However in retrospect, IMing you with a different<br>
screen name appears to be the... wrong thing to do...<br>
(8:19:34 PM) LoLiAddiCteD: I now know that I am far too high to be dealing<br>
with such important things such as a fragile friendship. I accept this, though<br>
I do regret it.. this.. it.  regret doing.. talking to you... typing, whatever...<br>
What was I talking about? Wow, I really just need to shut up...<br>
(8:24:03 PM) LoLiAddiCteD: lame.<br>
(8:42:32 PM) LoLiAddiCteD: Whatever you decide... Just read this.<br>
<br>
When I first moved, I had no friends, so loserishly, I went to the aol chatroom scene<br>
to make friends. Pathetic, right? From those days, there are still 3 people who I've<br>
tried to keep close, and tried to keep as friends. You are one of them. Another is a<br>
lost cause, but 1, I have become good friends with in real life... We chill all the<br>
time and swap buds, haha but anyway, enough about her. I'm in a strange time in my<br>
life, drugs, mental issues, physical illness; it's pretty fucked up. And to lose an<br>
old friend, a valued friend, though it hasn't really seemed so lately, is something I<br>
would really regret if I let happen. 5 years I've known you. 5 fucking years. I've told<br>
things to you that I hadn't told anyone else, I trusted you, I don't give a fuck.<br>
I really wish that was true. But for some strange reason, I finding myself caring<br>
that you are ignoring me. Caring that you won't give 3 minutes of your time just to say<br>
hey, whats up, etc. And now you say "im not supposed to talk to you"? WTF is that bull<br>
shit, some dick head boyfriend of yours spying on your computer? What the fuck ever, I<br>
just find it hard to believe that at one time, you had cared about me, as I did you...<br>
now after all that time, you just turn your back and let it all turn to dust? And when<br>
I say 'care about me', look it up in the fucking dictionary if you're going to try and<br>
take it the wrong way as if I had meant that we dated or something.<br>
But if you really are that type of person, the type who would want nothing to do with<br>
a person the once called a friend, then you know what? Make my fucking day, give me a<br>
reason to stop caring that some dumb bitch doesn't want to be friends with me anymore.<br>
Just do us both a favor, and tell me "Yeah, I'm that much of a bitch, now stop talking<br>
to me". Because until I'm convinced that there really is a reason to say fuck it and stop<br>
trying to talk to you, I'm going to continue to do what I think is the right thing to do:<br>
Make things work.<br>
So one of the two, you decide:<br>
(8:42:44 PM) LoLiAddiCteD: 1) Fuck you, you stupid bitch<br>
(8:42:46 PM) LoLiAddiCteD: or<br>
(8:42:53 PM) LoLiAddiCteD: 2) Talk to me... Please<br>